reflecting & loving you, in writing, until I can again in person
This website and these letters are a small way to celebrate you and show my love and appreciation while learning new skills along the way. The substantive work lives in the docs linked below and within me.
I hope this site doesn't overshadow what actually matters: the therapy sessions, the journals & docs, the YouTube videos speaking to you, the books I've read, the reflection, the exploring and healing of traumas, the move toward secure attachment and the quitting of vices I've been addicted to for well over a decade.
Over 550 hours of learning went into understanding myself and understanding you to the deepest of depths. Every new insight I gained, I used to reflect on our past experiences and our relationship. Countless moments of realizing what was really happening within me, between us, and why. This is the work that will allow me to show up as the man of your dreams.
My words will never fully capture the depth of my love for you or how much has changed in me, but my words alongside my actions and efforts should. If given a second chance, I would be your blessing this time around. I would be your safety. I would be the one to lead and love you the way you always deserved.
One conversation at a time…
Every frame holds a piece of us. Every laugh, every quiet moment on the couch, every drive to Waterloo, every kiss that made me float. I don’t just remember them, I carry them. Looking back still makes me smile because I know what we had was rare, and I know how deeply I still love you. — yours, always
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