I understand if you don't want to look back, or if you're skeptical about how much could really change in 4 months. You may also believe I don’t deserve another chance as I disrespected you and the relationship and I fully understand that. But we both deserve that once in a lifetime love and connection. This is just that. We shared a love and connection that is beyond rare. I have never been so sure of anything in my life than wanting to spend the rest of my life with you. If you were to ever take a chance on something that could change your life, I hope it's this. I hope you take the chance on the man I’ve become. Even just opening the doc or scrolling through a few videos, you will understand the evolution and growth is significant and authentic.

You used to always ask me why I love you. My words never did it justice because it has always been a feeling for me, the strongest feeling I've ever known or been sure of. But I think the closest I can come to showing you is in how I talk about you to others, how I hold you in the highest regard in every conversation, how my emotions come through when your name comes up, and especially how I speak about you in my therapy sessions. That's where it lives, not just in words, but in everything I carry.

I've attached a document of letters and journals I've been writing. I've taken therapy, and my courses more seriously than I've ever taken anything in my life. Some of the sessions are recorded, and I'd love for you to watch a few if you're open to it. There's also a TikTok collection I've saved, videos that have genuinely shifted the way I understand, think and feel, and I'd hope you'd consider adding me so you can go through them at your own pace.

You tried to guide me. You were absolutely right, always. I just wasn't able to receive it yet. I needed to get there through healing, through doing the actual work. I've done just that, and so much of it is because of you, bubs. I love you.

I haven't changed who I am. I've changed how I am at my core. And through all of it, the one constant is that I've continued to fall more and more in love with you, even through the distance.

I hope I get to have these conversations with you in person one day, but what matters most is your timeline, your emotions, your safety, and what you desire.

Forever yours,

Shaheer.